I’m so much better than this
Or did I just think I was? It’s never enough. It’s never enough. I feel I’m never accomplishing anything. Is that a personality disorder? We just shipped a large order to one of the hottest hippest boutiques in town, and they have been a customer since we launched. They reorder and reorder and reorder, as do most of our retailers. Celebrities have Baby Fabulous products. I’ve met celebrities. We’ve been featured in glossy magazines and sell out in ultra chic boutiques. But it’s never enough.
Good thing too. Or is it? I spend some time telling my daughter to appreciate the moment. I see her always looking ahead, making plans for the next event, or dreading the end of the current one, and I wonder if she takes enough time to enjoy what is happening when it is happening.
Yep, yep- I lecture her because we see in others that which we can’t face in ourselves;-) I don’t know – maybe it’s a survival instinct. I would say it helped my business survive over the last year – what’s coming up? What needs to happen next? How are we going to keep on keeping on? Where can we cut the fat? Kept us alive. Did it stifle us at all?
How much of survival mentality is fear mentality? I’ll never know how much I held myself back from…being afraid we might not make it. That’s the daily balancing act of running a business – walk a tight-rope right down the middle of risk and fear and you’ll probably hang in there. Me however, I’m feeling a little restless. I think I’ll fall towards the side of risk and see if that net down there will catch me. I feel a need to be a little better than I have been – on the creative side of life. There has been a whole lot of focus on organizing and hunkering down and getting it done and making it happen and now we need to focus a little on growth and fun and possibilities and outrageous ideas. Because I mean really, I am so much better than this…
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